More

Sinachi's song "I want more of you" is more than a song once you allow God to take you through the process required to understand the concept of more. All my life I have strived to do more to leave a legacy for my family and the generation behind but as I get older,I begin to question the essence of my pursuit as I soon discover that more is relative to each individual.

Whereas in my initial understanding,the idea of doing more required achieving great success so I could live well and be a fulfilled man,my inability to feel fulfilled led to questions and later discovering of the paradigm that governs more.

As a man,one thing is certain,I can never get to a place where a "more" would satisfy me, that's because for every attempt to fill up the void within with one thing or the other, I realized how deep the pit is and how hard I need to work to be satisfied. Anyway that said,I'll like to talk about "more" from a new man in christ perspective. As I got older as a believer, I transferred by insatiable desires to God hence I just added God to my vanity thereby believing I had a license to seek and attain more. Anyway I guess you know the answer to that, I was disappointed, I learnt that we can rebrand our vanity by putting God ahead of vanity but all that can give us is godly vanity and that's not acceptable either.

Many of us are flogging a dead horse, we put faith on garbage hoping to grow holiness, the real essence of our acts of worship is to see if we can bend the hand of God to get want we once wanted as sinners. Its a painful reality I have come to see first in myself the in many who seem to seek God without actually seeking him. For many the frustration gets too much and we begin to device new schemes to force success by preaching and twisting scriptures to get people under our leadership to either give or enable us perpetuate ungodly acts. Its a sad story when pastors begin to interpret grace as a ticket for sin simply because he or she cannot seem to articulate the implication of "more". We don't seem to understand that a desire to get close to God comes with new heights of responsibilities, when we say I want more of you, its just another way of saying I want to you break me and remake me into what you can use. Now I guess it beginning to make sense to you! More is not a slogan for Guinness stout neither is it a song, more of God in you implies more work,more brokeness,that's because no one gets into the holies of holies without a set apart and dedication of self to God in a whole new way. 

The predictability of the result of seeking more is not once sided, we often think that more should give us more money,more fame etc but don't be supreised if more turns your life upside down, God has promised us a good end but the route is not defined by us.

Sometimes more would unseat everything you currently enjoy just like Isreal leaving Egypt for a Cannan of more. I bet almost everyone swore that this journey was not of God, that's because the detail visible to everyone seem to imply all was not well with Isreal. In fact more people died on the Cannan journey of more than they did in Egypt of convenience which happens to be a city of bondage. 

There would be pockets of hope on the journey of more that would give you succour but you'll would never be able to juxtapose the good events against the events that seem to crush our faith. Remember isreal in the wilderness, they had quails and mana and water from the rocks but they also had death by serpent and many horrific events.


Igonoh Godwin
7/12/13